Where is my heart belongs?

Anju Jagarwal
ILLUMINATION
Published in
4 min readJun 14, 2021

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My quest in search of where is my home, where I belong.

Start living your life with a whole heart. It will start with you when you decide where you want to live. I always wondered when I travel somewhere if I want to go back home again or belong to this city where I live my dream life. The time is precious, every second you spend in this world, it’s your duty to make it worth living & to enjoy every moment with happiness. Everyone wanted to spend their life where they can wake up and feel like they are in heaven, & where they sleep and feel like the world is beautiful. In our minds, we live in a fantasy, and we don’t want that fantasy to end & if somehow the fantasy end, that’s the point where everything falls apart.

You’ll ask yourself where you belong, trust Me I feel the same, I ask this question to myself every day. So How can you find out where you belong suppose sitting on a bus, or on a flight, or a train going back “home. Every time you had to go back home after traveling, you feel like something missing, felt depressed, so much that you asked yourself this question, “why going back home is so depressing? “ “Is it your home? “ And if not, then “where is your home”?

When we traveled, we entirely put ourselves in a new environment. We grow, we adopt different things, we grow as individuals. We explore streets, the people of the city & in this whole process you don’t want to leave this place because you know everything back at home to be the same.

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It Is Also A Symbol Of Stagnant And Inert.

I have lived all my life in one place in India (Jaipur). I do feel love where I live now. But I know this is not my home. Here is not the place where my heart is. People always say that home is where your heart is & most of the time people just lived in one place and not know is this the place they want to live their life because they don’t even know where they belong.

You travel and when it’s time to go back home, you feel uneasy because you know how long you have been away, the city still looks the same, the same people who don’t even know you, who don’t even understand you talk about you the same crap over and over again, and your life be waiting for you at home. Finding a home is something that everything should be done. Don’t settle with the feeling that you should stay around just because it is where you live now.

That is what my city reminds me of, and I don’t like it. I love meeting different people, but now I don’t meet interesting people here. And that is where the depression is coming from, the realization that there is more to this world than” home”! That is why I always ask this one question to myself is this place my home or “where is my home”?

Just because you live someplace does not mean it is your home. It just makes it your current living situation, but when you know you belong somewhere & your heart is in it the right place, happy, then you know it is your home. That is where you belong & yes, you may have family who lives in some other city or country, but if that makes you happy it's okay to leave a family. It is your responsibility to make you happy & it is your family’s responsibility to feel happy for you. Be happy & be yourself.

Just trying to follow my dreams & find my home with my heart, not my head

I am a lost soul. I’m trying to find out everything, am I know where I belong. I say right now I don’t belong anywhere. Likewise, I might not find my “home” any time soon, but that does not mean I stop looking. I believe I have the right to know which city is for me where my heart feels like “home” which is the one place where my personality fits the most & I’m gladly roaming around the world until I find my “home”

This is why we need to travel, in search of our home. Our real home is not where we live right now. For you, the question is not where you were born or where your parents live, but it is a question of where do you think you belong and traveling and discover new places is the only way to find out that. How would you know where your heart belongs if you have never experienced anything but what had been shoved in your face by the so-called society?

Why I am saying this because I had traveled in my life, not much, but I trust my gut feeling is always my strong point & for me, one thing I loved most in these past few years in travel, every place I visit in past years I feel fulfilled, I feel every location gives me so much to learn, all the unknown streets gives me different vibes that I crave for, beaches makes me realize how much I like sea waves.

Stay strong, travel & search for your “home”.

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Anju Jagarwal
ILLUMINATION

A happy soul who believes in good things.& I Believe In soul mates!❤ If you would like to receive new stories from my side, please subscribe to my email.